Tok... mature man

Carry such an innocent appearance… An old man that clad with matured character. Yeah! Making nonsense is just his cup of tea. My earshot is really strong in hearing all his words. What’re men huh! Extremely upset… indeed.

Triumphant in career with the profitable business yet grief-stricken in life, in creating a true beautiful life I suppose. Well… might be he can pay money for all…

It’s such a huge problem when man leave without any principal in life… in their daily life I mean. I would say he could have illness that needs to be take care of really well. Prevail on hati yang tiada ketenangan, hati yang jauh dengan The Creator. He not gonna admit all these though. Personally my empathy goes to him…

Someone told me, men can be categories into three. First, which is hard core, won’t be able to change till the end of their life. Second a man that really fast can be changed and last one is a normal man, I can’t really get the meaning what they meant by normal men. Conceivably he is belonging to the hard core knot. Pity him...

My last saying, some sorrows are better expressed in silence as a smile… it holds more meaning than words

Mencari keikhlasan...

Sebuah keikhlisan yang sukar untuk dinilai, yea... ternyata cukup sukar untuk aku menilai keikhlisan. Sesuatu yang tidak dapat diukur dari segala segi, mungkin dari segi perlakuan, tapi perlakuan boleh dilakonkan, dari segi perkataan mungkin. tapi bait-bait perkataan yang diungkapkan tidak menggambarkan apa yang sebenarnya, itu juga besar kemungkinan right, bagaimana cara nya yerr... Dengan gerak hati mungkin or maybe with the third eyes? ahh... persetankan dengan segala pertayaan yang sentiasa berlegar-legar difikiran.

Ternyata hanya kepada MU aku menyerahkan segala nya.

wahai zat yang maha hidup

zat yang menguasai tentang segala sesuatu

dengan rahmat MU

aku memohon...

sempurnakan lah segala urusan ku,

jangan diserahkan kepada ku...
walaupun sekelip mata...

love without condition... talk without intention... give without reason & care without expectation

semua ini yang aku pegang selama ini, jadi kenapa harus aku memikirkan segala kerisauan yang sentiasa bermain-main difikiran yerr...

Dugaan yang tiada noktah...

Berat mata memandang berat lagi bahu yang memikul... Hanya itu ungkapan yang aku mampu luahkan, perhaps no words to express... betapa berat dugaan yang aku lalui.
Sampai bila awan mendung akan berlalu dan terus pergi? Satu persoalan yang tidak mungkin aku akan ketemui jawapan...
Aku tak punya sesiapa untuk meluahkan segala rasa isi hati, hanya air mata sebagai pengubat... itu lah hakikatnya aku

aku yang senang tiasa mempamirkan keceriaan diwajah biar pun dihati penuh kedukaan...
aku yang sentiasa membohongi diri sendiri...
aku yang tidak pernah merasa erti sebenar sebuah kebahagian...

Tidak tahu sampai bila aku harus melalui hari-hari yang sebegini...

Mungkin cerita kehidupan yang penuh kedukaan ini tidak akan pernah ada nokhtahnya...

Melancholy Lady

A melancholy lady...

that always has a though that she was unlucky lady compare with others outside there. Yea… But still she thanks The Greatest for whats have been granted for by Him. Again… Thanks Allah for all what you’ve rewarded. Allahamdulillah.

I was listening to one malay song which really bring a deep expression in missing someone that she really admired...

Gelisah dan bermimpi... di angkasa berduri
namum tak bisa berdiri namun aku gagahi
Berkejaran bintang dilautan nafas kesesatan
membilang rindu dendam jangan hilang punca
mencari tapak dan isi alam... perit nyer percintaan

Gelisah mimpi datang usahlah percaya...

Well, well… sometimes we can’t really express the feeling in words. It's expressed by itself thru the actions. Ooo dear... How nice the feeling of being admired and love by someone. Yea... but like the lyrics in the song, gelisah mimpi datang usahlah percaya...

Let it sink in my heart

With one remark make one say L O V E. By no means of love, is a beautiful gift, is a wonderful essence, thus holding it deeply inside. Let it sink in my heart… I’m a bit touch full person. But not jiwang huh! heh. Haaahhh… Love is such a white canvas tendered by heart and soul adding together by blowing up with genuine thoughts and imagination. Wow! how gorgeous it is. Well… well… feeling towards love is biased by a soul inspiring across a melody of the harmony, lyrics and perhaps movies. Yea, that’s my say.

Right to be heard with a soft voice whispering, you’re not deserving, nothing of worth. I’m a bit out of line in fact. Not going to strive to be worthy of so precious a gift, yea… never let it sink in my heart though. No matter what other people say, just be calm down. If truth be told, adorable love may God so willingly gives.

I enjoy this instrumental much, even though I’m not be devoted to, but a touch full person with full of feeling always blowing up with the imaginations and beautiful thoughts. Just let my soul rousing with this piece of melody… Let it sink in my heart...

River flow in me

Looking into my eyes… is a reflection of unspoken words. Hardly ever, sink like this… in this sensation. Can’t really hold sway over the tense… All I know I need to choose something soothing, yea… a touch of tranquil, relaxing. I just want to make my heart singing. May perhaps get something done with emotional nourishment? Hmmm…
Come into my mind when think over about life. Cast doubt on it. Lets life manipulate me or I need to manipulate life? Well… I’m not gonna let life manipulate me! But all I know, I’ll try hard, really hard to manipulate it, never ever letting pressure, stress influence me. Optimists! That’s the word. It is saying “an optimist will try harder to change the situation”

Oh God… got hold on this. Life must go on following the guidance of Allah (swt).
“…then whosoever follows My Guidance he shall neither go astray, nor shall he be distressed. But whosoever turns away from My Reminder(i.e. neither believes in this Qur’an nor acts on its teachings.) verily, for him is a life of hardship…” (Surah Taha: 123-124)

In the region of life

Close my eyes, sit down straight with the correct posture. Take a deep breath. Inhale… and exhale… Just concentrate on my breathing. Think hard when breathing… pulling the clarity in, positive stuff, clearness and breathing out by throwing the haziness, ambiguity, bad, negative stuff. Hope against hope… use up a few minutes to do this.

Hmmm… in the region of life, i do have a choice to either enjoy my life or to hate it. And no one can control or take that from me. Like so… I choose to be happy. Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. I’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections…

Just be true to myself … follow my guts. Along these lines… whenever I get the gut feelings, I’ll go with it and give it all that I’ve got. I learn a lot about myself. Yea… I think I’m so proud to see that I’m strong and I was able to do it. Things are not always as bright as we hope it to be. I still have a lot of drive left in me. So I will carry on and hopefully I can enjoy my life. All I want is to feel much peace and love.

The words saying
“Love is the best music in the score of life. Without it one would forever be out of tune in the immense choir of humanity”