Welcome Ramadhan and Good Bye Wan J

Thousand apologies for all my wrong did that make you feel uneasy. Selamat datang Ramadhan and selamat tinggal Wan J. Thanks for all, much appreciated indeed. Sir, be a mature-healty man. With humble I step back from your life and end it with salam.

How dramatic it sounds huh! Hehe… as usual I’d draft a text that I’m gonna shot on this coming Friday before Ramadhan get started. And I did not expect for any reply from him. All I know, I’m someone that prefer the formality in starting or ending certain friendship or any relationship, we started with sweet Hi and we should end it in a sweet way as well. Yea…

What make me decided to send this to him is because the truth was naked, we are actually gazing for a different stuff and I do respect his yearning, thus I would say I should clinch with the rigueur feat then. The Greatest did planned well for all of us thus… yea… we should know how to add spice in life to make it more meaningful then. So what should I think off now?

Thinking ‘Everything is going wrong’ or ‘Nothing turns out well for me’ is destructive. Remember that thoughts have power.

All I need to do

1-       Remain optimistic. Stay positive. This can be difficult when nothing seems to be going right, but the alternative is to fall into the trap of negativity. Negative thinking increases stress  

2-       Visualize a positive outcome. Instead of worrying and imagining the worst, visualize how I would like a situation to resolve itself. Visualization is the art of using imagination to visualize specific events occurring in life. It has the power to make us feel happy

3-       Don’t recycle the past. Many of the worries are driven by the fear that the past will repeat itself. Whether it was heartbreak, an injury or a natural disaster, it haunts. SO STOP THNKING ABOUT PAST AND LIVE IN THE MOMENT

Well... well... In life we’d realize that there is a purpose for everyone you meet. Some will test you, some will use you, some will love you and some will teach you...

Most important are the ones who bring out the best in you , respect you and accept you for who you are. Those are the ones worth keeping around. Keep them close to your heart!

Deep inside me... i damn hate to say good bye... indeed! isk... isk... isk... uwwwaaaaa...

A short man, Dato' S?

Hehehe… what a dramatic title, o dear cannot tahan one… want to laugh. Oh My English. Errrrrrrrrrrr…

He uses to be an important man in government sector and he’s I would say can be considered as successful in doing his business as well. I do not know how this man can draw closer into my life. Is like out of the blue! Without any sign.

Such a spark in the light. But one thing good about this man is he straight way tell that he is looking for a lady, seriously looking for a lady to become his life partner. To be true… my heart doesn’t say so to this man indeed...

He’s actually can be categorized as a good man. But I do not know… I still be nice to him even thought I don’t really mean into serious relationship.  But I’m just worried if he might take it differently. Auwwww… I really do not know.

Sometimes I have to stop thinking so much and go where my heart takes me. Life is too short to stress myself with people who don’t even deserve to be an issue in my life!

I have to be careful before I open up to. Only a few people are open up to. finding love is like finding shoes. Sometimes, people go after the good looking ones but they end up choosing the one they feel comfortable with. I do believe happiness is a choice, not a result. Nothing will make you happy until you choose to be happy.

You know what, One of the best things in life is seeing a smile on a person’s face and knowing that you put it there. O… I’m gonna make someone that I admire always smile then and I’m gonna try hard to apply these…

Rules to a better Life :

1. Never Hate

2. Live Simply

3. Expect a Little

4. Give a lot

5. Always Smile

6. Live with Love

7. Be With The Greatest

And I think I need to remember this, never leave the one you love, for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love

                         . . .  . . . nevertheless, life is incomplete WITHOUT LOVE !!

Actually how beautiful is your relationship is really depending on how creative you are. In relationship what matters most are Love, Trust and Understanding. Love is actually needed to be take care and renewed each moment in time. Like Iman, we renewed at least 5 times a day. Hold this hardly okay…

A bolt of lightning from a blue sky…

M: I don’t know… your says to me when we had a 1^st chat, why should cover… the beauty should not be cover up, those says pretty much still sitting in me actually. Do you encouraging me to pulling off from putting myself near to the heaven Sir or just testing me on that by throwing those  sort of says… Curiosity kills a cat! I’m actually slowly committing myself to a constant improvement in being a slave to the Greatest; Al-Muhyi

He did not reply my message, thus I sent another message to him

M: I am sorry if you were offended… perhaps with my words. Really do not mean to do that. Again… my apology to cause displeasure in you

I do not know… how to explain my feeling towards him. But all I know the feeling is like flat feeling hehe, in other word is like no feeling, blur blur one lorr… :D :D  

M: A bolt of lightning from a blue sky… do you still with your old hobbies Sir? I’m sorry, for being pretty much straight-forward in asking you. Do you still flirt and sleep around with beautiful ladies or someone that you admire or any ladies that admire you Sir? I’m learning about men… including you… I’m hoping we’re open in discussing anything… I'm always see you in a +ve way Sir...

J: In short, I only admire you… and I only wanna have you…

M: wow! That’s a cliché Sir… is often a vivid depiction, find insufferable. All I wanna know is either YES or NO

J: Of course no,we cannot gauge a person based on past history.What about you?Are u going to go out all with the man that u admire?Yes or No

M: definitely a big NO NO. please don't get me wrong Sir, i'm not even mentioned that i'd gauge a person base on their past...that's not me. i'm a present person. is just a question to u asking sincerely and i'd told you that i'm looking u in a +ve ways... i really appreciate for your reply Sir. again.. Thanks for the sincere answer...

M: I have my own ego in accepting men in my life. I dwell with my principle   

J:  Don't worry, I'm always positive. You are saying about Admire, what say u if I use Committed in the relationship? Don't you think both party need love and to be loved

How should I say... I'm actually extreamly upset, frustrated feeling came to me... after he'd share his previous life with me. Is like, o dear... why I need to meet up with this type of man, Why? Why? and Why? Can't really express it by words... arrrggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Why he need to share all with me???? I never met this type of man before, seriously... he's extreamly too BAD, TERRIBLE, IMMORAL man. No words to express. I'M DAMN UPSET!

All I know I just wanna be silent for a while… lets time say it. I just wanna shift my focus on my preparation for my Umrah… Really hope The Greatest will listen to me. Only Him understand me… Only Him, knew what I want.

Nevertheless I need to TRAIN myself, INSTRUCT myself, stay FOCUS , HARDLY HOLDING  these...

1. To have a grateful heart

2. Become the most positive and enthusiastic 

3. Treat everyone you meet like you want to be treated

4. Commit myself to constant improvement as a slave to The Greatest;Al-Muhyi

5. Take a good care of those you love, be bold and courageous

6. Understand the happiness is not base on the power or prestige but on relationship with people you love and respect

7. Be loyal, be honest, give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully

8. Marry the right person

9. Commit yourself of quality

Hardly to hold on to these... come ladies, come together, help me to go in with these... I'm trying hard...

I want to know your feeling

Please hold these hardly in each and every one of us

Carry a heart that never hates

Carry a smile that never fades

Carry a touch that never hurts

Having a successful relationship with a man isn’t an accident. Attraction isn’t an accident. Knowing how to create a lasting and meaningful relationship with a man and break the patterns that have happened in the past, without doing something different. By knowing inside the mind of a man? O dear, why so dramatic today Huh! hehehe

Something had happend between me and that man... but I really do not know.. I do not know how to think about this. Let it goes with the flow, let it dance with its own melody. You play the tune and I'll dance to your tempo.

I will give all to the Greatest; Al-Muhyi to handle. because He knows which is the best for me and the only HIM knows what I'm looking for. With God willing.

J: Girl friend doesn't mean you really belong to seombody but soulmate for me is jiwa raga, deep inside, hidup dan mati you belong to me. You got it?

M: Got it, thank you...

J: Now did you know how I feel for you? 

M: I do not know... :P

J: Now you should know...

J: I want to make you feel like other normal woman who really deserve to be loved

J:  Why should I test you? I asked you what you feel? Do you feel LOVE?

M: Yes, I'd feel LOVE.

M: Dia anugerahkan Ku kasih untuk berbagi dengan mu, atas restu Allah ku ingin memilike mu...

J:  You make my day.

What is inside the mind of a man? Deep inside me, I couldn'tt care less what you gonna say, I’m not going to trust men 100%. Past experience teaches me a lot. I’m gonna make you suffer, so watch out men out there. LOL. I hate men much but on the other hand… :P hey hey hey... please Mrs M, carry a heart that never hates

The Greatest; Al-Muhyi listens and already knows what's in our heart but He wants us to ask Him for what we want, put trust in Him, pray anywhere.

Prayer is amazing exchange... We handover our WORRIES to the Greatest… And He handovers His BLESSINGS to us...

I am holding these hardly in me...

I would LUV to have you now

 

Wow! What a say huh… he’d express those words through our dinner at one of the restaurant in BJ. I do not know if he seriously said that and he meant what he said. I’m really stupid in this kind of stuff, I don’t know how to react actually, damn blur, I feel soooooooo stupid hehe. Thus I said. You ask the Greatest if I’m the one who suppose to be with you.

I’m a lady that always taking for granted when come to deal with this kind of stuff. I don’t know… all I can say is getting feed up, numb, dead, without sensation, dull, blunt! O dear…. How TRUE is this man huh? I don’t have any clue for this really. I'd try to look back what he wrote to me

J: You are beautiful

M: Well... i never think soo... yea, just ordinary lady and thanks to the Greatest...

J: May I know what did you do? 

M: Perhaps.. you wanna throw a guess?

J: Ok, you are doing modelling?

M: No, no, i'm not. maybe the way i'd post in the pic make you said that. I love art much actually. and how about u then?

J: I'm in Oil & Gas Industry. I was in Turkmenistan last year. Now back in Malaysia doing some consultancy in Oil & Gas.

J: May I know your real name

M: I'm Mysterious

J: Nice name, suit with you

M: O... my dad gave that name, i take that as a compliment. Thanks. I'm just ordinary lady anyway...

J: As I said, you are beautiful, why did you like to cover your head? show your beauty

M: Trying to take islam as a way of life... aiming to be a good muslim day by day...

J: You like to listen to music?
M: I do, it's such a theraphy for me

M: Well... beautiful is very subjective anyway. different people have their own interpretation

M: I'm sorry, I'm just curious... basically what are u looking for actually in ur life? You already got what you want? Do you fully satisfied with what u have?

 

hmmm... he reluctance to answer, I think he's love to fling just like that with women. well, let it be! player at the age of 56 i supposed. O God! My apology, I'll take back my words... :P:P:P:P:P

I’m really tire of knowing men, damn tire of being fooled, I’m tire for being tested. I do not know…  I will only go for men that really need me and seriously looking for a soul partner. So keep catching then, good luck! :D :D :D :D :D. I’m gonna text him with these… let see what’s his reply.

Thus! Ladies out there don’t try to mimic me okay. Remember this…

Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason… If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it 

Hey! I wanna share with you, 3 questions that can make your man withdraw

1st - HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT ME? is this love or is this just a fling? Are your feelings for me real and lasting?

2nd - WHERE IS THIS GOING? Would you like to get married someday

3rd - ARE YOU SERIOUS ABOUT US? Or are u just in this for now but not thinking anything  serious or long-term?

Basically we need to be more smart in saying out the words.  you don't want to seem pushy or needy, so you may even rehearse what you're going to say in your mind. HUH how expert I’m in commencing with men. HAHAHAHA

Don Juan

I’m not sure why he addresses himself as Don Juan. Hmmm… Don Juan is actually used synonymously for womanizer, especially in Spanish slang. He is holding the tagline “I’m lonely now and forever”.

His tagline catch my eyes, I actually do not like it! Especially when it came from a man and from the way I look at it, seems like this man is defeated. Come one man! The ones who get affected are the ones who lose! We need to light it up from within... but is not easy. We have to hold on to "HOPE". Give all to the Greatest; let Him handle everything for us. Put trust in Him. With God willing.

I have a small talk with Don Juan (DJ). I'd start with criticism for the words that he is holding. He'd responses.

DJ - Why? Something wrong with that...coz I'm so lonely after divorce with my wife...been married 29 years.

M - Actually I'm someone tht always wanna see other people happy... but when iId read ur tagline... it touch me indeed. You're a man with a strong sense of inner sensitivity, peace, calmness and deep inner feelings... am i right?

DJ - OK. You can said that. So what can I do to be happy while inside me alot of sadness that play around...

M - We should not be regretted for what had happened. each & everything happened with a reason, the Greatest had planned it well. We handover the worries to Him and He handovers His blessing to us, He listen & already know what in our heart but He wants us to ask Him for what we want. thus put trust in Him. optimist about life okay.. got to remember, no matter how hard things may seems, there is always something good coming around the corner... only chosen people be tested by Him...you'll get the reward from Him :) God willing with...

DJ - Have been listen this advised many time from friend... but the feeling in our heart is getting worsed. Let it be that way... Sometime i feeling happy outside but sad inside... Now i travel alot, juz to forget the passed... anyway thank you

I'm speechless, thus I'd add

M - Yea... lets time booze by itself... just take a lesson then. I have been tested as well. but I'm trying my best to take it in a +ve ways. optimist and resilient. Look it in a simple way, things happend with a reason. I'm not gonna defeated with life...

What make me strong? Because I strongly believe that.  He know about me more then I know about myself… thus He planned , ascertained much much better then what I want… or what I’m looking for. Just the matter of time... I added... 

M - I would say, life is either a daring adventure or nothing and changing from bad to good is a long-term adventure, but it is wonderful...

DJ - hahaha, that your opinion... that good.. so enjoy your life while your old & single........ sorry to said you are old...

HUH! This man is too much :D I'm not old okay! Still young and bergetah! LOL Let see what's gonna happend. I added

M - Shoudn't be any problem though... I do respect people's words... I stay with a priciple in life

Les Brown said ‘There are winners, there are losers and there are people who have not yet learned how to win’  

Psttttttt… I pretty much not appreciate @ admire this type of man :p :p :p I do not know why... I feel this man is not strong enough to handle the test from Al-Muhyi, I'd can taste the aroma of frustration, regret in him. huh! :D sorry i'm a bit emotional in seeing things like this.

Very clear, precise with a loving touch? awuuu...

I met one man… He introduce himself with, I’m Master  H… hmmm interesting huh. He’d indicate me with these

A lady with a strong sense of inner sensitivity, peace, calmness and deep inner feelings with powerful intuition. My communication is very clear and precise with a loving touch awwuuu… J   But he’d mention I’m lacking of physical energy and reveals emotions of depression and melancholy. I’m introverted nature, not wanting to deal with the world. HUH! Yea… May be that’s make me feel isolated, lonely or creating a sense of being abandoned.

Master H asked me

Are you more concerned about others than yourself?

Is it difficult for you to set your boundaries and to say NO?

Do you thrive in a healthy, loving and caring relationship?

Do you express your deepest emotions and feeling to others?

Do you have enough time to relax and recharge yourself?

Are you listening to and following your intuition?

Are you grounded and in touch with you physical reality?      

You are a visionary and understand things intuitively.  Something shows inner peace, calmness and a powerful connection with the divine manifesting in a loving outward personality. Your intuition is strong. You are a centered focal point in any company, radiating peace, faith and hope. Your energy has a healing effect on others. Many can sense the power emanating from you. You may be receiving impression and vision without trying. You are idealistic and futuristic with psychic abilities. You are speaking from your heart with inner self-confident and security. Your words are peaceful and healing. You are caring, sensitive and loving. This is commented. What a fairy tales story huh! LOL

Well.. well… I don’t know, it’s all a gift! Everything comes from Him, the Greatest Al-Muhyi. Thus I need to say thanks to Him. All i can say

Prayer is amazing exchange...

We handover our WORRIES to the Greatest… And He handovers His BLESSINGS to us.......

The Greatest; Al-Muhyi  listens and already knows what is in our heart but He wants us to ask Him for what we want, thus we have to put trust in Him, pray anywhere