Back in a Year 2008...

In a year 2008, unmoving... breezy in my mind, situate myself into a character, yea... appeal in adoring a name really much indeed... Just flow and drowning myself with the touch of a strong sensation

Beautiful Eyes…

the melody that you bring
give the pleasure of other eyes, and fleshes
the observe is like a melody
can’t really stop …
with full of passion…

beautiful eyes…
the song of your life
the song for the loneliness
change someone life…
into innocent style and humble

from the beautiful eyes of the lover
shining shines like a diamond…
shining with the true colors
dashing with amazing grace

if love was trust
if love was caring
if love about in believing
you have all that in your eye
beautiful eyes…

This is what Mr R commented.
HAA MEK , YANG INI CANTIK MEK. SIKIT TOUCH UP , PASAL NAK BAGI SESUAI DENGAN MELODY , PAS TU DAH BOLE . SAYA DAH TAU MEK NI MEMANG FULL OF IDEA .MEK , TERIMAKASIH YE . YANG LAIN-LAIN TU KALAU ADA LAGI KELUARKAN JE MEK . SIMPAN SENDIRI PUN TAK GUNA GAK.NANTI MEK AKAN TAHU GAK APA YANG SAYA BUAT DENGAN LIRIK2 YANG MEK HANTAR .MEK , TERUSKAN LAGI YA , CAYANG AWAK MEK

Neither Poem nor Lyrics…

Once a in a blue moon I did update this blog. And out of the blue, hmmm… why everything is blue? Perhaps coz I really like blue tinge, but not blue film huh… yea, someone make inquiries me to get in touch with my soul along with put in writing, thus going by these lines… taraaaaaaaa, here u go!

Sampai Bila…

Aku merenung pada wajah awan
Kapan mendung kian berarak
sepi… berlalu dan terus pergi
Gelora tanpa henti bertandang
Tidak bisa untuk aku terus berdiri
meniti hari-hari
Aku utuh berdiri… aku gagahi

Melangkah dalam keperitan… kesamaran
tiada bait-bait kata yang perlu diungkap
untuk dilakarkan pada suatu wajah
wajah keperitan dalam kehidupan
yang akan tiada pernah ada noktah

Aku menadah doa panjang…
Penuh pengharapan pada suatu haruman rahmat
Beriringan pangilan deruan rindu…
Akan singgah…
Menjadi wangian hari

And this is what Mr R who involves in arts for about 30 years, did say this to me.

WADUH MEK KU CAYANG YG INI LAGIII BAIK MEK . TAPI KALAU YG MACAM NI SELALU NYA DIPANGGIL PUISI . BAGUS NI , CUMA EXPRESSION KENA TAMBAH LAGI , SUPAYA DIA JADI DRAMA BERAT YG CANTIK . TAK PE MEK , INI DAH BAGUS NI , TAHNIAH MEK . AWAK DAH MULAKAN PERJALANAN AWAK . JANGAN BERHENTI YA MEK . TERUSKAN . JANGAN TAKUT , JANGAN MALU DAN MEK BOLE . BERBANGGA LAH MEK KERANA AWAK DAH BOLE HASILKAN KARYA YANG INDAH MEK . TERUSKAN LAGI YA MEK SAMPAI KITA DAPAT KETENGAHKAN KARYA KITA NI NANTI . JANGAN BERHENTI , DONT GIVE-UP MEK , TRY LAGI DAN LAGI , CAYANG MEK . ACTIVATE DARAH SENI YANG MENGALIR TU MEK . THANKS MEK

hmmm... funny kan?

Tok... mature man

Carry such an innocent appearance… An old man that clad with matured character. Yeah! Making nonsense is just his cup of tea. My earshot is really strong in hearing all his words. What’re men huh! Extremely upset… indeed.

Triumphant in career with the profitable business yet grief-stricken in life, in creating a true beautiful life I suppose. Well… might be he can pay money for all…

It’s such a huge problem when man leave without any principal in life… in their daily life I mean. I would say he could have illness that needs to be take care of really well. Prevail on hati yang tiada ketenangan, hati yang jauh dengan The Creator. He not gonna admit all these though. Personally my empathy goes to him…

Someone told me, men can be categories into three. First, which is hard core, won’t be able to change till the end of their life. Second a man that really fast can be changed and last one is a normal man, I can’t really get the meaning what they meant by normal men. Conceivably he is belonging to the hard core knot. Pity him...

My last saying, some sorrows are better expressed in silence as a smile… it holds more meaning than words

Mencari keikhlasan...

Sebuah keikhlisan yang sukar untuk dinilai, yea... ternyata cukup sukar untuk aku menilai keikhlisan. Sesuatu yang tidak dapat diukur dari segala segi, mungkin dari segi perlakuan, tapi perlakuan boleh dilakonkan, dari segi perkataan mungkin. tapi bait-bait perkataan yang diungkapkan tidak menggambarkan apa yang sebenarnya, itu juga besar kemungkinan right, bagaimana cara nya yerr... Dengan gerak hati mungkin or maybe with the third eyes? ahh... persetankan dengan segala pertayaan yang sentiasa berlegar-legar difikiran.

Ternyata hanya kepada MU aku menyerahkan segala nya.

wahai zat yang maha hidup

zat yang menguasai tentang segala sesuatu

dengan rahmat MU

aku memohon...

sempurnakan lah segala urusan ku,

jangan diserahkan kepada ku...
walaupun sekelip mata...

love without condition... talk without intention... give without reason & care without expectation

semua ini yang aku pegang selama ini, jadi kenapa harus aku memikirkan segala kerisauan yang sentiasa bermain-main difikiran yerr...

Dugaan yang tiada noktah...

Berat mata memandang berat lagi bahu yang memikul... Hanya itu ungkapan yang aku mampu luahkan, perhaps no words to express... betapa berat dugaan yang aku lalui.
Sampai bila awan mendung akan berlalu dan terus pergi? Satu persoalan yang tidak mungkin aku akan ketemui jawapan...
Aku tak punya sesiapa untuk meluahkan segala rasa isi hati, hanya air mata sebagai pengubat... itu lah hakikatnya aku

aku yang senang tiasa mempamirkan keceriaan diwajah biar pun dihati penuh kedukaan...
aku yang sentiasa membohongi diri sendiri...
aku yang tidak pernah merasa erti sebenar sebuah kebahagian...

Tidak tahu sampai bila aku harus melalui hari-hari yang sebegini...

Mungkin cerita kehidupan yang penuh kedukaan ini tidak akan pernah ada nokhtahnya...

Melancholy Lady

A melancholy lady...

that always has a though that she was unlucky lady compare with others outside there. Yea… But still she thanks The Greatest for whats have been granted for by Him. Again… Thanks Allah for all what you’ve rewarded. Allahamdulillah.

I was listening to one malay song which really bring a deep expression in missing someone that she really admired...

Gelisah dan bermimpi... di angkasa berduri
namum tak bisa berdiri namun aku gagahi
Berkejaran bintang dilautan nafas kesesatan
membilang rindu dendam jangan hilang punca
mencari tapak dan isi alam... perit nyer percintaan

Gelisah mimpi datang usahlah percaya...

Well, well… sometimes we can’t really express the feeling in words. It's expressed by itself thru the actions. Ooo dear... How nice the feeling of being admired and love by someone. Yea... but like the lyrics in the song, gelisah mimpi datang usahlah percaya...

Let it sink in my heart

With one remark make one say L O V E. By no means of love, is a beautiful gift, is a wonderful essence, thus holding it deeply inside. Let it sink in my heart… I’m a bit touch full person. But not jiwang huh! heh. Haaahhh… Love is such a white canvas tendered by heart and soul adding together by blowing up with genuine thoughts and imagination. Wow! how gorgeous it is. Well… well… feeling towards love is biased by a soul inspiring across a melody of the harmony, lyrics and perhaps movies. Yea, that’s my say.

Right to be heard with a soft voice whispering, you’re not deserving, nothing of worth. I’m a bit out of line in fact. Not going to strive to be worthy of so precious a gift, yea… never let it sink in my heart though. No matter what other people say, just be calm down. If truth be told, adorable love may God so willingly gives.

I enjoy this instrumental much, even though I’m not be devoted to, but a touch full person with full of feeling always blowing up with the imaginations and beautiful thoughts. Just let my soul rousing with this piece of melody… Let it sink in my heart...