A Mysterious

The Love Doctor?

2012-02-01T22:11:00.000-08:00

Wanna share about emotional attraction that was mentioned by Christian Carter .

How important it is for a man to feel emotional attraction for us, we're probably wondering if there's anything we can do to make him feel it.

Emotional Attraction 1- Reframe our Limiting Beliefs

Hold this hard! Positive women are extremely attractive to emotionally-healthy men

The way we see ourselves, the way we think about ourselves, and our "Mind Set" has a lot of power. It can either create great things and drive us forward towards success and happiness in our lives...

Or these things can be the very things that hold us down.

When we carry around "negative" beliefs about ourselves, about our love life, and about how men feel about us... we're completely shooting ourselves in the foot.

We're holding on to something "negative" when we carry these kinds of beliefs, we are actually setting ourselves up for a negative outcome...

We're actually making ourselves LESS attractive to a man.

Emotional Attraction 2: Enjoy The Moment With Him

Emotional Attraction 3: Predictability Is The Enemy Of Attraction

Wanna know more? Come on... make an appointment, come and see me then :)

I HATE these words... If you love someone let it goes

2012-02-01T01:47:00.000-08:00

Pretty much hate that words. Oooo... come on, what I did was, if I hate something i just ignore them, keep silent and let it goes by the wind, let it melt just like ice-cream under the hot sun! hehe... What a word huh! But all I wanna say is, if you love someone, Catch Them! :), put an Effort, :p Pray... Pray hard, remember! the secret of the SUBCONSCIOUS BRAIN which is The Secret to A Positive and Success!

Repeatedly impress these goals onto your subconscious mind using affirmations, meditation, and visualization

Subconscious brain is where I hold my beliefs and perceptions. Existing beliefs and perception will overtake my conscious willpower almost every time. Yeah!

You know what I'm catched with these beautiful words... really... damn beautiful, cantik sangat-sangat... nak nangis niiii :`(

Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia.. untuk menerima ku seada nya....

Tuhan memberikanku cinta, dia anugerahkanku kasih,
Atas restu Allah ku ingin milikimu
Ku berharap kau menjadi yang terakhir untukku,
Restu Allah ku mencintai dirimu
Atas restu Allah ku ingin milikimu,
Ku berharap kau menjadi yang terakhir untukku
Restu Allah ku mencintai dirimu....

Adorable ARL...

I am depress… on what I have done

2012-01-25T22:36:00.000-08:00

Taking Breath Away. I Have You In Me. Sayang You deeply. When Your Heart and Your Soul Back To Fitrah, Do Drop Me A Say ok. Always Pray For You. With Humble, Permisi…

I do not know what happened to me. But I’m really felt sad. :`( Perhaps I did it wrongly, I did fly the text to him at about 5.30 am and I knew at that time he still sleeps. By hoping that he will reply after he wake up. But nothing came into my inbox... Definitely he takes it in different way. I can’t really put the blame on him. I’m someone that pretty much stable in handling my emotion though. At that particular moment, I don’t know… I’m admitting I’m just normal human that always make mistake.

Deep inside me… my instinct… my mind strongly believe… one day he will be chosen by the Greatest to receive His guidance, and he will say something to me… again playing with subconcious mind, focus only on what we want, only +ve stuff, and let it float then... each moment in time, it becomes PRAY, DOA, keep repeating do for the same things. The Greatest know which is the best... Ar Rahim... will always listen, at all time, never ever stop!

Only Ar Rahim can make a change, nothing is impossible. Everything is in the hands of Him. I give all hope to Him, Ar Rahim

A say from Sufi:
"Ar Rahim, the Greatest puts turbulence in our heart so that our nearness to Him remains forever."

I will hold this TIGHT… I will hold this HARDLY…

My Subconscious Mind...towards you ARL

2012-01-22T03:57:00.000-08:00

I STRONGLY believe about the power of subconscious mind...

Unlike my brain and body, my subconscious mind never sleeps or never rests. It is working 24 hours per day 7 days a week, and consistently absorbing data, creating and sending out vibrational frequencies based on the feeling towards you.

It's related to +ve mind. We have been teached to always have +ve minded. This related to each other. WOW! What a say! What a confident huh! I don't know... But I'm strongly believe ARL gonna mine. Just wanna say

I Have You Deep Inside Me Indeed...

I Have You In Mind... You're in My Pray...

I Do Admire You Much...

I Do Miss You Much All The Time....

I Do Sayang You Much...

and I Love You

With the Greatest willing. yea... after his heart and soul are clean and close to YOU Ar Rahim... With the full of hope, please never give me the feeling of frustration when I give all my hope to YOU. Ya Rahman, Ya Rahim... ameen... ameen... ameen.

Blue moon is back?

2012-01-17T21:12:00.000-08:00

DR, you come again into my life? Begging for my love? Dear… It is extremely hard to understand.

It’s already 2 months, when I close my eyes, I see you. I can’t express it with words… only my soul and heart knows. I just worried about my turning back. I’m worried about your perception, worried if you will not accept me again into your life.

I have u in mind. Miss everything about you. You are the best lady that I have ever met.

I don’t have anybody after you…

Just wanna let you know that I miss u baby

Baby, please come back into my arms…

I’ll wait for you baby…

These are all the killing words from a man with the title of DR, a specialist in physiology and expert in many-many stuff with a decade of experiences. Love makes people feel miserable right… I can’t believe actually, am I dreaming huh!

I get hurt when I’d catch you. Please give me some times. :( :P

Did I catch him? I did huh! Hehe :P As if we are playing hide and seek, why these happened? I’m tired to think about this seriously. Let it take part on its own, let it flows just like that…

I’m applying one of the Law of Attractions. The Law of Cause and Effect

For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction. Every cause has an effect, and every effect has a cause. Whatever you send into the Universe comes back. Action and re-action is equal and opposite. All thought is creative, so I need to be careful what I wish for… I will get it. With the God willing.
Thus I’m say good things to everyone; treat everyone with total respect. Never worry about what I’m gonna get, just concentrate on what I give. Do things with full of sincerity though.

Al-Baqarah - Verse 32...

2012-01-12T00:52:00.000-08:00

A start for the year 2012, begin with the name of Al-Kabir... The Greatest, Ya Rahman... Ya Rahim... The most beautiful names of the creator, The All-Merciful, The All-Beneficient

As-Salam... The Source of Peace
Al-Musawwir... The Shaper of Beauty
As-Samad... The Satisfier of All Needs
As-Sabur... The Patient One

Al-Baqarah;32 with the meaning

They said, "Exalted are You; we have no knowledge except what You have taught us. Indeed, it is You who is the Knowing, the Wise."

Place your right hand on your left chest.. recite this verse, do it 5 times a day and see whats the result... i'm gonna do this. reciting with the full of undestand and confident with all the says from The Greatest... wait for the result then... much thanks to one of the school principal here. Appreciated!

Thank You Sir...

I'm not gonna drop my tears... a big No No

2012-01-12T00:38:00.000-08:00

Philadelphia... I would say i'm gonna miss you :) the nice place to work but not really the nice place to stay... for a lady like me. a typical mysterious lady. what a say! This is not a good start though

Not sure how to start with, after a couple of months, yea... pretty much back in early 2011 i left. So! let me start with dramatic sensation :) with the title Humble Apology...

honey dearest...

look at this beautiful lyrics from one of the indonesian song

'bila cinta tak lagi padaku... bila hati tak lagi padaku... dan bila dia bahagia dirimu... akukan pergi miski hati tak akan rela...

couples of previous weeks, i'd catch your words and your actions had translated into a few messages. and in norm i received those and digested them. i'dsmell them either, pretty much strong from your sincere actions... your love getting faded day by day... moment by moment i felt you're not comfort with the way i'm... a humble apology

if those are correct and i did not receive any words from you... with humble i'm willing to step back from your life... indeed life is not gonna be beautiful without sincerity

The gist of the story was, the Greatest created human with a unique manner. Thus explore them before throwing them with all the assumptions

Worring is stressfull... just wastes energy

2011-06-01T19:43:00.000-07:00

If you can't do anything about something, there is no point in worring about it!

I got the says from a person. A person that might be trying to challenge me with thousands of his curiosity. Well... I am waiting for that moment though. Please put to the test on me. Just wanna know until what level you wanna put me at. Hmmm... damn interesting huh!

Don't you ever know that, I am holding these hardly in me? In every gripping moment in life... I am flowing, I am sailing... smoothly with living a Happy, Resilient and Optimistic. Come close to me.... come inside me... to feel it, experience it with full of the sensations. Fuhhhh... such a dramatic huhh.

I wanna share about how I am handling the worring. Worring is stressfull and in certain situation it does not accomplish anything. It's nothing more than kind of waste... wastes energy. Thus I did something about them or I just simply ignore about them... hehe.. it pretty easy huh, as easy as 1, 2, 3. I use to do this as well, when I'm worries about something. or.. okay let me rephase my words, if I'm worries about someone or the feeling of missing someone is at the top of my mind, I'd just grap a piece of paper and write down the worries, write down his name and then put them away in a box? Hehe... is a big No, No, i just throw it away in the trash then. Its such a fun! Then I am released!!!

Bolt from the Blue

2011-05-22T07:11:00.000-07:00

I'd receive these from someone... Ben! and I'm not sure how should I comment on his words. Pretty much mysterious on how should I perceive on stuff like this. well... well..

Do you realy know who I am?

I am opening my doors of my world for you, if you are not picking it up than it's too bad. You are not made for any normal man! Your mind needs to be challange by an intelligent man. And you have not found any as they fled after knowing you. Only i can match it and you know that I am good, if not, better.

lets explore each others potential and share our resources. You have to collapse your defence mechanism for me to come into your world.

So you agree that we know each other closer and better?

I do not know who you are... what count is not the colour but the character that you bring and the words that you said not the language that you use either. From the first glance, I know that you are a man... and outstanding man. Without opening your mouth I knew that you are a man with something though. I can smell that either...

Really wanna fly!

2011-05-09T04:06:00.000-07:00

Anyone wanna fly with me? Seriously... I'm offering someone that really sincere wanna be my partner, to be with me... to fly like a bird, beautiful bird. yea...

The thing is, anyone out there will come to me with the answer? It's pretty much imposible, to make it TRUE. I'd feel down... I'm speechless actually. Either no words to express or hard too understand the expression of how I'd feel.

Out of the blue, the stament by someone, but I can't really recall the name... said

"What we think determines what happens to us, so if we want to change our lives, we need to stretch our minds"

Should I rephase my statement then... into a very simple expression so that everyone know and understand me, I'm really looking for the happiness, TRUE Happiness! I did get the say... Happiness is an inside job. Is not an easy things... for me to digest that say though.

I Can't Stop From Liking You

2011-04-26T05:49:00.000-07:00

I can't stop from liking you... WOWWWWWWW!

what a say huh! This is really an interesting story. Not sure how should I put the start to make it super duper interesting. mama miaa... But I would say I will stay with the mood, with the real mood that he clad with. The pesona that he brought.

I wrote...
I can't sleep the whole night, heart keep crying… was thinking of people take advantage on me just like that, because of my weaknesses… all I need is a little bit of empathy, pity me...

I'm not sure how should i go about this ... how to carry on with the flow of his rhythm... I'd say
for anything happened, I always take the blame, at all time I'd put the blame on me not on other people, thus just let me be alone, let me keep hush for a certain period...

Let's life booze by itself... I just don't wanna to let my heart cry anymore. Telling the truth and making someone cry is better than telling a lie and making someone smile...

Satisfaction Brought It Back...

2011-04-23T21:43:00.001-07:00

Sir,

I'm be of the same mind... for the most part followers're taking things for granted. I would say followers're not trying to be au fait with in yawning thought.

Sir... I'm be pleased about your turn of phrase.

Feel like there is no precise word to express my gratitude for your kindness in putting your view in words… other than appreciated! All I can say is; if humans not taking a religion as part of their way of life... thus stuff like that happened.

These are my says to Mat Rabi...

the 6th from him

my dear mek

it is good to be back here.i hope you are well and im still waiting to meet you. i seek forgiveness from Allah swt if i erred in my views and constantly seek his guidance...

when i said earlier that there cannot be separation between humans and Allah, please understand that we are part of Him but not Him. remember He is unmanisfested and formless. in His absolute essence He will never be known (Zat Mutlak)..we carry His attributes (sifat) . essence and attributes cannot be separated..but the essence here is dependant on His absolute essence(zat mukayat)......we are the slave and He is the Master. ..He is the lord and we are the vassal. in this sense it is logical to say that the slave is to serve the master..the slave is to fulfill the master's purposes. we have to be careful in understading the words used by most religions."we are to worship God"..to me a more accurate words should be." we are to serve God"....submit to Him in order to serve Him and be His khalifah ( representative) in this world.

my dear mek, this is the answer....who is God? who am I? what is the relationship between me and God? and what is my purpose in this life?

certainly i will try to elaborate further on the subject of serving God..at this stage let me say that most people including the muslims are more concerned about worshipping God rather than serving God....

....to be continued....

Winter Ballad KL Version... Kuya Hamka

2011-04-18T23:08:00.000-07:00

Bravura!

I'm not trying to lay it too thick thought it may sound a little thick to you, but honestly... your words genuinely flow just like a tranquil air... if truth be told... in deed

I'll keep you in my heart till it's very last beat.

A person who truely loves you and knows you... is someone who sees the pain in your eyes... while everyone else will believes in the smile of your face

Started with a Statement

2011-04-18T19:08:00.000-07:00

Starting with these from me. Shooting to Mat Rabi.

Muslims that confess that they are free thinker or a Muslim who forms opinions on the basis of reason, majority of them are especially a person whose religious opinions differ from established belief. They are adopted, embraced, be in favor of with the western culture thus make them rejected Islam which restricted their life! What do you think Sir? I need your sincere comment...

I'd receive the 4th says from Mat Rabi

my dear mek

I hope Allah continues to bless you and again I seek His guidance for me to say the right things and ask for forgiveness if I had erred. We not only have to be believers but we also have to be seekers. I cannot remember exactly the Surah in the Koran when Allah says (something to this meaning)...I send you Muhammad to teach one important thing, find ways towards discovering Allah, or simply seek Allah... I said in my earlier posting that the key to know Allah is to know yourself first...Who am I? Therefore we have to focus all our attention now to know ourselves first. When we were first concious about ourselves, we came to know that we are called humans. We realised we existed in a place called the world. The religion taught us that there is the Supreme power called God who created everything. He is invincible and of course a seperate entity. As far as I know there were two occasions when the Prophets had the chance of meeting Him. The first was Prophet Moses when he asked God to be visible at mount Thursina so that he could explain to his people about Him. Allah warned Prophet Moses that if He showed Himself everything would get destroyed. Anyway He commanded Moses to look at the mountain and He manifested. Moses saw the entire mount Thursina disintegrated and he fainted. When he regained his conciousness, he submitted that he was a true believer. The second time was when Prophet Muhammad was ascended (Miraj) to meet Allah at Sidratul Muntaha, somewhere in the sky, so we were told sitting on a Throne called Arasy.. .

...to be continued....

5th says from Mat Rabi

my dear mek

my apology for quite a lapse from my last posting..i hope you are well and enjoying life. as for me i have been quite busy with my business activities and discharging my responsibilities as the head of the family. my mother in law came to stay with us and just went home to sarawak yesterday.... i hope you have been reading my writings earlier with an open mind..Again I seek Allah's guidance to continue writing to you..I recognise the limitation of my mind to talk about the subject. just as a reminder, i said before that the key to know Allah is to know yourself and we should at this stage to focus about knowing ourselves. we realised that we are called humans and we were thrown in this world without any choice. we have no choice to choose our parents, our race, our place of birth, our gender and our physical appearance.do you realise that you see everything through your own conciousness alone? you are the only one.there are no two you...only you..by the way this is Ahad or Esa. we must be special. let us look at what Allah said in the koran....something to this meaning..'i created man and jinn for them to submit to me'and ' i created man to be my khalifah (representative) in this world'. and when the first man Adam was created, He said ' i blow my soul unto him'...the angels questioned Him as to why He wanted to create humans that would make mischief on earth..to which Allah replied." indeeed you don't know what i know"..to a question on what is soul (roh), He replied ' i only reveal little knowledge to man regarding soul, the rest remains my secret'.....these are jottings what were revealed in the koran regarding the creation of humans...let us now examine ourselves..physically we were thrown to this world as a result of reproduction from our parents. we are alive and have conciousness..what and who is behind that conciousness?..our breathing (nafas) cause the aliveness. we have to be convinced that HUMANS ARE PART OF GOD, NO SEPARATION ONLY UNITY.......

...to be continued....

Al Sabra Ito in his own ways...

2011-04-16T04:53:00.000-07:00

With humble… I beg you Sir, please do not treat me same as you’d treat other ladies on the net. Do not make a fool of me Sir... I’m here to look for a sincere, beautiful heart and beautiful mind in making a colleague.

We are matured enough, may perhaps do respect each other would much be better. Life is shorter than what we thought… Be GOOD man SIR!

Please put a little bit of your sympathy on me Sir... seriously Sir, I'm lokking for part time job. I'm the breadwinner for my family. so, do offer me a job... yea... any job that you think i can contribute.

Write to me, what are you doing now? He'd write to me... Thus i'd give him a glance.

I just wanna share with youabout the project that I’m handling now. Huge project a suit of human capital including infrastructure, is a transition from IBM to one of the cooperate company and university in USA. I’m the SME from Malaysia and others SME located in spain, Ireland, Mexico, Philiphine, India, New Jersy, Ohio and a few places in US. So my involvement is including management part and technical in creating a strategy to making sure we deliver a first class suit of application to the client. I’m doing papers, presentation to VP, Directors including all team members some demo and also doing technical works. Basically that’s what I’m doing Sir. I’m facing client as well. previously I with German company and my expertise is in Telecomunication and now I’m in Human Capital fields…

You have such a Beautiful Heart

2011-04-15T01:43:00.000-07:00

I'd reply to Mr Rabi sir,

thanks again for your expression. currently i'm extreamly busy with work but i'll try to find sometime times to comment regarding ur words. i really appreciate that much Sir, thanks again...

Second say from him.

My Dear Mek I hope you read my last message with clear mind and continue seeking guidance from Allah SWT. And once again I seek guidance from Allah to give me the inspiration to say the right thing, the truth. God is fair to all His creatures and the process of communications have always been there to guide humans regarding the required faith to recognise His existence. Hence Allah had sent his messengers throughout all ages and everywhere in this world. All the teaching of the messengers became the basis of most of the religions. I had at one time studied comparative religions, though somewhat cursory and was convinced that the present day religions of the East were true teachings at the beginning, I mean like Buddishm, Hinduism, Taoism etc. Hence the religions were preaching towards the state of ISLAM. Sadly over ages humans deviated from the true teachings. Let us look at the Abrahamic religions (the monotheistic religions), Judaism, Christianity and the present day Islam. Judaism was the first brought by Nabi Musa, then came Christianity brought by Nabi Isa and lastly came Islam brought by Nabi Muhammad. These three major religions of the present time are essentially one religion. The Jews did not believe in Nabi Isa or Jesus and created Judaism. The Christians in turn did not believe in Nabi Muhammad and created Christianity. In this sense religions are man-made, just like political parties...

to be continued...

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3rd say from him...

My dear Mek Here Im writing to you again continuing from my last posting to you...I ask forgiveness from Allah SWT if I erred in my views and constantly begging Him to guide me to say the right things.. I have expressed my views on the subject of 'religion'. Just to conclude, my persuasion is that the word religion is misunderstood. Worse still most religions as that exist today are man-made. A'Din or the Way of Life to guide us on this world had always being communicated to humans through God's Messengers. You and I are indeed very lucky to come to this world through Muslim parents. I had in my earlier posting talked about God. The greatest sin in this world is to be an agnostic. Not only we have to believe in His existence, we have to know Him. In order to know Him, first we have to know ourselves. This is the KEY..........

...to be continued

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Neither Cyber Don Juan nor flamboyant?

2011-04-07T07:40:00.000-07:00

That’s the say used to soupçon my ears. Touch a chord exceedingly!

"You may say, no to a person who always pushing you to say yes until the person will give up... but at the end you will accomplish the true, sincere, honest feeling from the person is truthworthy through your perceptions and determinations of your credits... " Well... well... I really do not know. I'm in the cloud! May perhaps it suit with my says. Wanna share the tramendours feel? just shoot the breeze then. mama miya! heh... Here you go! people shoot to you just like that.... stay tuneeeeeeee.... to be continued okay my darling! hahaha

I'm back! Hmmm... where are we huh, okay i'll continuing with his say...
You are a perfect lady with dignity and pride. You are a sentimental and caring lady but a lady with high ambitious. With well approach and principle. But you will only be tame when comes to sex, sex is yr talent. Nevertheless, you a the same time is a very sensitive person and loving the family in the sincere scenario. You will only shallow the bitter and throw out the sweet though yr heart is sickening. You can absorb to remedy the mistake and willing to forgive. You also never put your anger to a person you don’t like long in your heart, your attitude would be let bygone be bygones.

I’d give him 90% out of 100% for giving the words on me. You know what? I really put an eye on you. I’m tango with the melody that you bring, in the midst of the tune that you’d play until the sensation of your movement move toward… draw closer. Damn interesting! Don’t you know that you’re in the arduous chapter huh! Cyber Womanizer? You won’t know that Cyber Don Juan. HAHAHA a big laugh if the truth be told.

By the name of Mat Rabi

2011-03-29T00:19:00.001-07:00

Second reply from Mat Rabi and I did reply to him.

Thank you for your words Sir. Satisfaction brought it back! Much appreciated. By the means of reversed physiology in knowing you Sir… thus, I got the answer to my curiosity. You’re a good man!

I would not be forthright with you I suppose...

My Dear Mek

I hope this message will find you in good spirit and enjoying every moment of your life. Praise be to Allah, the formless and the Source to everything. I continue to seek His guidance to grant me the wisdom to say the truth.

Life is a journey and the so called religion is supposed to guide us in this journey on earth towards the after life. Some people say in fact the after life is 'real living' which both of us have not experienced yet. Yet it is the most sure thing and definitely we will be there sooner or later. Ironically this is the most forgotten thing and most people dare not think of this. Death is seen as a negative thing that will bring sorrow and sadness....
From the beginning of time there is in fact one religion to guide human beings in their journey on this earth and their way of life. The religion must have come from the same Source. The religion is ISLAM in the language of the last messenger, the Arabic language. The fundamentals remain unchanged because there is only one truth, indeed the only reality. Human beings must believe and have the faith that God the supreme power exists and He is the Source of all existence, the manifested. The Source is formless and un manifested and remains absolute. His absolute essence will never be known. He says in the Koran , 'whatever you think is not Me". He means His absolute essence. Put it in another way, "Don't think about My absolute essence". Recognizing His existence human beings are to SUBMIT to Him in order to be SAFE or have PEACE. Submit and Peace is the meaning of Islam, from the linguistic point of view. It is the terminal objective of our life. It is the end state that we should be in. The knowledgeable says, " the start of the religion or the first thing is to know Allah". Then religion laid down rules and regulations for our conduct on this earth. This is to create a social order and a sense of justice in our human relationship. This changes from time to time depending on our civilization. For example at the beginning it was not forbidden for siblings to marry. Another example before Muhammad it was forbidden for husband and wife to make love throughout the fasting month. Now it is only forbidden for the couples to make love during the day time. Of course there are many more examples....

My dear Mek , I have to stop now and I will continue some other time. So far I have talk about religion and God. Oh yes I forgot to mention that Muhammad SAW didn't come to this world to discover a new religion. He came to correct practices and belief that had gone astray. In my next posting I will try to talk about human beings (you and I) and our relationship with God, Allah SWT.

Salam

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Gapo'dio gak a’we…

2011-03-28T04:17:00.000-07:00

Salaam.. Cik S (i nok panggil gapo , s kor m kor m s...) atau SS (stand for 'sweet s'..jange maroh deh..)

A glass of coffee would normally make me wired up ... but not for tonight .i don't have to......;-) knowing that i got the chance looking at all your photos...All praise be to the Almighty..atas canteknya kejadie makhluk bernamo S ne...yang dianugerahkanNYA pado Cik S ....am not trying to lay it on too thick though it may sound a little thick to u, but honestly, i do fancy all your photos..me? ermm not that camera-friendly like you..tapi shukur lah handsome tidak manis ader kot..kahkah (perasan pulok ambo ne wei..adoi..nak keno pulok nyanyi dikir ne....tp tak panda manonyo)

I like those appealing and in vogue photos as I could say..but I liked most yang hok klasik gitu (mace perempuan melayu terakhir..) though it might look a bit passé (ops..sory2, ado kor patut cakak gitu deh..) but seriously I suka yang nampak2 klasik gitu...contemporary ok, but once blend in dgn hok klasik..puhhhhhh..wow!

So i took it that you did like performing arts ya..at glance, looked like a ballerina to me, am serious ~ balletic though motionless ..doing some yoga / stretching before rehearsing for the 'Swan Lake'..you knew the famous classical ballet , right? My sister loved ballet so much during her school days but not now..haha... It's good , you must have been practicing some regular exercises regiment since..Maybe I should get you a panama (god willing) that should go along with the black apparel..u love watching the sunset do u sweetie ? Erm InshaAllah, weather permitting, ada kelapange boleh leh jale2 tepi pantai kor...As i told u I hardly got the chance to stand and stare these days...we shall skive off and hit the beach ermm..boleh lah bawok novel2 hok bahgu sekali ...

Tentang jadi imam tu, InshaAllah, pandai tidoklah...ambo sekadar oghe biaso jpr, ngaji pun tak banyok,,tapi Alhamdulillah, taufik & hidayah, kifayah, riayah, innayah, rahmatNYA sentiasa melimpahi kito..TErus pohon maghfirahNYA jugok semoga kehidupan lebih 'manis' gitu kan kan kan? Tapi ambo ne meme minat lebih pada hal2 tasauf , jadinyo tu sebab suka cite pasal kalbu...dan hal2 berkaite...maaf, tak niat nak banggo apo pun, pinjame secubit ilmuNYA sajo..;'-)

Oklah ambo jaghe dapak kesempate nok tulis panje2 gini, tapi sungguh, ambo raso shukur dapat berkenale denge Cik S..Doa ambo mugo kito terus mendapat redhonya..tp sebagi manusio biaso, memelah ado doso gitu, cumanyo kito cubalah jago sebaik mungkin kan... tapi ambo akui kade2 ambo acts loco sikit..hehe..naka2 gitu ..maaf yer andai ado tersaloh cakak kor, apo2 ko..Selamat Istirehat..andai terjaga solah male, doa2 lah ambo sekali deh...

Like a Balletic Though Motionless

2011-03-25T03:19:00.000-07:00

Dearest Sir,

such a captivating expressions from you Sir… flow graceful along with the essence. Authenticity and touch me deeply indeed… Touch full person with a beautiful heart. YES! You’re SIR.
Precisely, we just a vessel, like a balletic though motionless can’t be in motion without His Guts. May the blessing from The Greatest; Al Muhyi, forever at the heart of you…
I really much appreciate. Thousand thanks Sir!

That's what i wrote in replying to the says from Sir R. I really admire the way he puts the words. when i read it, my soul just flow like that... feel like something really touch my heart... i don't know... i'd suppose with his strength of mind, he put pen to paper in writing.

My Dear Mek,
As promised I will try to write in response to your comments and questions earlier even though I feel so inadequate in relation to the subject matter....

First, I submit to the Almighty Allah to grant me the required knowledge and seek His guidence to say the right thing..." Allah please don't make me feel that I know when in fact I don't know'.......

You and I are thrown into this world without having the choice of choosing our parents,, place and the so called RELIGION. We adopt the religion of our parents almost automatically without much questions. We were made to believe that the religion we profess known as ISLAM is the only true religion accepted by God, the invincible Supreme Power. Most of us accept the religion almost dogmatically. As for me and I dare say to most other people as well, right from small the religious rituals became the bedrocks of my religious belief. So I saw Islam as a ritualistic religion...As I got older I was never happy with just performing religious rituals without understanding the greater message of Islam...To my mind it has to be more than just rituals..To me rituals cannot be just the end,at best they are just means to an end. I began to study and observe closely other religions in order to understand Islam more. Thus my journey started.......I started to search to the most fundemental questions first, where before I was taught not to question very much on such issues. What were the fundemental questions?.......First, Who is God. Second, Who am I. Third, What is the relationship between I and God . And lastly, What is the reason or purpose of my existence....Strangely, at this point, religious rituals take a back seat..I was not in the position where " I was controlled by the Syariah but rather I am in control of the Syariah". I remember vividly I met an old man who told me...." To be a seeker to the fundemental questions , janganlah tuan takut pada "dosa" dan janganlah tuan mengharapkan "pahala"..Of course at that time I was dead confused but the old man toldme not to worry and he was sure that one day I would understand him. He is past and gone now and I understood his words later...In my journey I constantly submit to the Almighty to guide me to the Truth and ask him to accept me on my return to Him. I always believe that He will not askme to do anything beyond my capacity...

I thank Allah and praise be to him for giving me the wisdom and courage to do my job and carry out my responsibilities....In fact Im the vassal, an instrument to fulfill His purpose...

Salam and may you be continually blessed by Him

Hamba yang Daif

Back in a Year 2008...

2011-03-14T19:13:00.000-07:00

In a year 2008, unmoving... breezy in my mind, situate myself into a character, yea... appeal in adoring a name really much indeed... Just flow and drowning myself with the touch of a strong sensation

Beautiful Eyes…

the melody that you bring
give the pleasure of other eyes, and fleshes
the observe is like a melody
can’t really stop …
with full of passion…

beautiful eyes…
the song of your life
the song for the loneliness
change someone life…
into innocent style and humble

from the beautiful eyes of the lover
shining shines like a diamond…
shining with the true colors
dashing with amazing grace

if love was trust
if love was caring
if love about in believing
you have all that in your eye
beautiful eyes…

This is what Mr R commented.
HAA MEK , YANG INI CANTIK MEK. SIKIT TOUCH UP , PASAL NAK BAGI SESUAI DENGAN MELODY , PAS TU DAH BOLE . SAYA DAH TAU MEK NI MEMANG FULL OF IDEA .MEK , TERIMAKASIH YE . YANG LAIN-LAIN TU KALAU ADA LAGI KELUARKAN JE MEK . SIMPAN SENDIRI PUN TAK GUNA GAK.NANTI MEK AKAN TAHU GAK APA YANG SAYA BUAT DENGAN LIRIK2 YANG MEK HANTAR .MEK , TERUSKAN LAGI YA , CAYANG AWAK MEK

Neither Poem nor Lyrics…

2011-03-13T17:57:00.000-07:00

Once a in a blue moon I did update this blog. And out of the blue, hmmm… why everything is blue? Perhaps coz I really like blue tinge, but not blue film huh… yea, someone make inquiries me to get in touch with my soul along with put in writing, thus going by these lines… taraaaaaaaa, here u go!

Sampai Bila…

Aku merenung pada wajah awan
Kapan mendung kian berarak
sepi… berlalu dan terus pergi
Gelora tanpa henti bertandang
Tidak bisa untuk aku terus berdiri
meniti hari-hari
Aku utuh berdiri… aku gagahi

Melangkah dalam keperitan… kesamaran
tiada bait-bait kata yang perlu diungkap
untuk dilakarkan pada suatu wajah
wajah keperitan dalam kehidupan
yang akan tiada pernah ada noktah

Aku menadah doa panjang…
Penuh pengharapan pada suatu haruman rahmat
Beriringan pangilan deruan rindu…
Akan singgah…
Menjadi wangian hari

And this is what Mr R who involves in arts for about 30 years, did say this to me.

WADUH MEK KU CAYANG YG INI LAGIII BAIK MEK . TAPI KALAU YG MACAM NI SELALU NYA DIPANGGIL PUISI . BAGUS NI , CUMA EXPRESSION KENA TAMBAH LAGI , SUPAYA DIA JADI DRAMA BERAT YG CANTIK . TAK PE MEK , INI DAH BAGUS NI , TAHNIAH MEK . AWAK DAH MULAKAN PERJALANAN AWAK . JANGAN BERHENTI YA MEK . TERUSKAN . JANGAN TAKUT , JANGAN MALU DAN MEK BOLE . BERBANGGA LAH MEK KERANA AWAK DAH BOLE HASILKAN KARYA YANG INDAH MEK . TERUSKAN LAGI YA MEK SAMPAI KITA DAPAT KETENGAHKAN KARYA KITA NI NANTI . JANGAN BERHENTI , DONT GIVE-UP MEK , TRY LAGI DAN LAGI , CAYANG MEK . ACTIVATE DARAH SENI YANG MENGALIR TU MEK . THANKS MEK

hmmm... funny kan?

Tok... mature man

2010-08-26T00:51:00.000-07:00

Carry such an innocent appearance… An old man that clad with matured character. Yeah! Making nonsense is just his cup of tea. My earshot is really strong in hearing all his words. What’re men huh! Extremely upset… indeed.

Triumphant in career with the profitable business yet grief-stricken in life, in creating a true beautiful life I suppose. Well… might be he can pay money for all…

It’s such a huge problem when man leave without any principal in life… in their daily life I mean. I would say he could have illness that needs to be take care of really well. Prevail on hati yang tiada ketenangan, hati yang jauh dengan The Creator. He not gonna admit all these though. Personally my empathy goes to him…

Someone told me, men can be categories into three. First, which is hard core, won’t be able to change till the end of their life. Second a man that really fast can be changed and last one is a normal man, I can’t really get the meaning what they meant by normal men. Conceivably he is belonging to the hard core knot. Pity him...

My last saying, some sorrows are better expressed in silence as a smile… it holds more meaning than words

Mencari keikhlasan...

2010-08-21T05:46:00.000-07:00

Sebuah keikhlisan yang sukar untuk dinilai, yea... ternyata cukup sukar untuk aku menilai keikhlisan. Sesuatu yang tidak dapat diukur dari segala segi, mungkin dari segi perlakuan, tapi perlakuan boleh dilakonkan, dari segi perkataan mungkin. tapi bait-bait perkataan yang diungkapkan tidak menggambarkan apa yang sebenarnya, itu juga besar kemungkinan right, bagaimana cara nya yerr... Dengan gerak hati mungkin or maybe with the third eyes? ahh... persetankan dengan segala pertayaan yang sentiasa berlegar-legar difikiran.

Ternyata hanya kepada MU aku menyerahkan segala nya.

wahai zat yang maha hidup

zat yang menguasai tentang segala sesuatu

dengan rahmat MU

aku memohon...

sempurnakan lah segala urusan ku,

jangan diserahkan kepada ku...
walaupun sekelip mata...

love without condition... talk without intention... give without reason & care without expectation

semua ini yang aku pegang selama ini, jadi kenapa harus aku memikirkan segala kerisauan yang sentiasa bermain-main difikiran yerr...

Dugaan yang tiada noktah...

2010-08-20T22:10:00.000-07:00

Berat mata memandang berat lagi bahu yang memikul... Hanya itu ungkapan yang aku mampu luahkan, perhaps no words to express... betapa berat dugaan yang aku lalui.
Sampai bila awan mendung akan berlalu dan terus pergi? Satu persoalan yang tidak mungkin aku akan ketemui jawapan...
Aku tak punya sesiapa untuk meluahkan segala rasa isi hati, hanya air mata sebagai pengubat... itu lah hakikatnya aku

aku yang senang tiasa mempamirkan keceriaan diwajah biar pun dihati penuh kedukaan...
aku yang sentiasa membohongi diri sendiri...
aku yang tidak pernah merasa erti sebenar sebuah kebahagian...

Tidak tahu sampai bila aku harus melalui hari-hari yang sebegini...

Mungkin cerita kehidupan yang penuh kedukaan ini tidak akan pernah ada nokhtahnya...

Melancholy Lady

2010-08-14T16:54:00.000-07:00

A melancholy lady...

that always has a though that she was unlucky lady compare with others outside there. Yea… But still she thanks The Greatest for whats have been granted for by Him. Again… Thanks Allah for all what you’ve rewarded. Allahamdulillah.

I was listening to one malay song which really bring a deep expression in missing someone that she really admired...

Gelisah dan bermimpi... di angkasa berduri
namum tak bisa berdiri namun aku gagahi
Berkejaran bintang dilautan nafas kesesatan
membilang rindu dendam jangan hilang punca
mencari tapak dan isi alam... perit nyer percintaan

Gelisah mimpi datang usahlah percaya...

Well, well… sometimes we can’t really express the feeling in words. It's expressed by itself thru the actions. Ooo dear... How nice the feeling of being admired and love by someone. Yea... but like the lyrics in the song, gelisah mimpi datang usahlah percaya...

Let it sink in my heart

2008-11-05T16:25:00.000-08:00

With one remark make one say L O V E. By no means of love, is a beautiful gift, is a wonderful essence, thus holding it deeply inside. Let it sink in my heart… I’m a bit touch full person. But not jiwang huh! heh. Haaahhh… Love is such a white canvas tendered by heart and soul adding together by blowing up with genuine thoughts and imagination. Wow! how gorgeous it is. Well… well… feeling towards love is biased by a soul inspiring across a melody of the harmony, lyrics and perhaps movies. Yea, that’s my say.

Right to be heard with a soft voice whispering, you’re not deserving, nothing of worth. I’m a bit out of line in fact. Not going to strive to be worthy of so precious a gift, yea… never let it sink in my heart though. No matter what other people say, just be calm down. If truth be told, adorable love may God so willingly gives.

I enjoy this instrumental much, even though I’m not be devoted to, but a touch full person with full of feeling always blowing up with the imaginations and beautiful thoughts. Just let my soul rousing with this piece of melody… Let it sink in my heart...

River flow in me

2008-10-24T00:22:00.000-07:00

Looking into my eyes… is a reflection of unspoken words. Hardly ever, sink like this… in this sensation. Can’t really hold sway over the tense… All I know I need to choose something soothing, yea… a touch of tranquil, relaxing. I just want to make my heart singing. May perhaps get something done with emotional nourishment? Hmmm…
Come into my mind when think over about life. Cast doubt on it. Lets life manipulate me or I need to manipulate life? Well… I’m not gonna let life manipulate me! But all I know, I’ll try hard, really hard to manipulate it, never ever letting pressure, stress influence me. Optimists! That’s the word. It is saying “an optimist will try harder to change the situation”

Oh God… got hold on this. Life must go on following the guidance of Allah (swt).
“…then whosoever follows My Guidance he shall neither go astray, nor shall he be distressed. But whosoever turns away from My Reminder(i.e. neither believes in this Qur’an nor acts on its teachings.) verily, for him is a life of hardship…” (Surah Taha: 123-124)

In the region of life

2008-10-21T08:47:00.001-07:00

Close my eyes, sit down straight with the correct posture. Take a deep breath. Inhale… and exhale… Just concentrate on my breathing. Think hard when breathing… pulling the clarity in, positive stuff, clearness and breathing out by throwing the haziness, ambiguity, bad, negative stuff. Hope against hope… use up a few minutes to do this.

Hmmm… in the region of life, i do have a choice to either enjoy my life or to hate it. And no one can control or take that from me. Like so… I choose to be happy. Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. I’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections…

Just be true to myself … follow my guts. Along these lines… whenever I get the gut feelings, I’ll go with it and give it all that I’ve got. I learn a lot about myself. Yea… I think I’m so proud to see that I’m strong and I was able to do it. Things are not always as bright as we hope it to be. I still have a lot of drive left in me. So I will carry on and hopefully I can enjoy my life. All I want is to feel much peace and love.

The words saying
“Love is the best music in the score of life. Without it one would forever be out of tune in the immense choir of humanity”

The first day in this world

2008-10-21T08:40:00.000-07:00

Really bored actually, hands started writing a few words about something. New in this world. By having this space, hopefully i can spend my time here writing whatever i want... whatever i feel... whatever i wanna share... Many stuff is in my mind. Personally, how to throw it into word is really really hard actually. All i know i need to be honest and i need to be clear with what i want to write. I love sharing in fact. Yea... maybe i'm gonna write about what i do. i busy with work actually... when i'm free, i'll make myself busy with yoga, with belly dancing, busy with reading books and stuff like that, and busy with mengelamun sendirian... heh. In life, i just let the flow run by itself... and i'm strongly believe that God did everything with a reason. Thus as of now only clarity in me.

I want to share these words, is just word maybe for your honey or for lovely hubby or maybe for someone special or something like that…

beautiful eyes…
the melody that you bring
give the pleasure of other eyes, and fleshes
the observe is like a melody
can’t really stop …
with full of passion…

beautiful eyes…
the song of your life
the song for the loneliness
change someone life…
into innocent style and humble

from the beautiful eyes of the lover
shining shines like a diamond…
shining with the true colors
dashing with amazing grace

if love was trust
if love was caring
if love about in believing
you have all that in your eye
beautiful eyes…